How do I get out of this rut?

<rant>Ever since I left my position as a youth pastor, I have been on cruise control in my personal spiritual life, and I am not happy about it.

I still read and study scripture but not as much as I would like.  I have recently joined with some other men in learning about what it means to be leaders in the church but I still don’t feel like my life is thoroughly committed to Christ.  He is more like a window dressing.

I want to love my wife as Christ loves the church and as much as I try I fail by to great a margin.  I want to raise my children to know and understand the good news of God’s great gift for us and I want them to not only hear it but see it in my life.  I fail here as well.

I want to serve my community with the heart of the Father loving the unlovely but I stay sheltered in my home and in my holy huddle far too much.

Here is the problem I am part of a great community of believers but we are actively not a programmatic church so I can’t just plug in join some fill in the blank ministry and cruise to holiness.  I don’t know how to operate under these conditions!  I am learning slowly that God works each of these things out in a personal way through his Holy Spirit but it is much more beneficial but much more difficult than I would like. </rant>

Just had to get that off of my chest.

2 responses to “How do I get out of this rut?”

  1. Jason,

    there is a something that SCREAMS at me from your post. I think it is important that you “hear” it for yourself. So- – maybe come back to this and try to read it from a third person eyes/ears.

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